A new month, new possibilities and me, realizing that I’m at the very beginning of making my dreams come true.
I’ve spent the last days with detailed organization and preparing myself not just for the new month ahead, rather for a new chapter in my life. I’ve been actually working towards this for a long while, but now the time has come to devote myself entirely to it.
I’ve always told myself, first I’m going to get my Bachelor of Arts (✓), and then I’ll concentrate on starting my own business as a writer and artist. I know it’s a long and rocky road to self-employment, especially if you want to build a creative career. I’m aware that it takes hard work and commitment. But that’s what I want to do. This is what I’ve been dreaming of since I was a kid and I’m more convinced than ever that I’m on the right track. Suddenly I’ve made the first steps in the past few weeks. Strategies have been considered, plans have been drawn up, and now that the official circumstances are in progress as well, I’m ready to get going.
After also having my last day at my accommodation job, because I couldn’t renew the contract for health problems, I got hit by the realization that it’s getting serious. Now, that I have the time to focus 100% on building my creative career, changing my life by doing what I love, I feel free. Though it is indeed scary, the uncertain and the complete, own responsibility to make something happen that others fear as impossibility. But oh, it’s so exciting! On the way home that day a colleague said to me: „It is said, that if you feel this way, nervous and excited, you’re about to create something big.“
Since it’s my dream, it is really something big to me. For me… I am doing this for me. I forget about comparison or being distracted by whatever isn’t part of my direction. I wish I could describe it in a better way what’s going on, what’s transforming inside of me, but I guess I’m still finding out. I’m just at the very beginning, but I’m excited for all these ideas I want to implement, new things evolving and I’d love to take you with me on my journey. Above all my ideas planned for my website and creating art, I want to write this novel I got in mind for years and which I’ve been postponing. Well, I didn’t really had the time to dive into this or I found excuses, but not a day goes by without thinking about it and from now on I’m going to devote myself to write this book. I’m going to blog about my work on this novel in a new category, but probably in German because I don’t want to confuse myself. Also, I won’t talk about the content of my story for first because well, I don’t want to until its ready to show. Besides, there are some other things I want to write about here and pieces of art I want to share but one step after another. It takes patience to make progress, but soon the results will be seen.
This month, I’m focusing on basic work. Which means finding a blogging strategy, getting a working routine and building the plot for my novel. I’ve been struggling with the plot since January, but I didn’t pay enough attention to it and got stuck with a potential outline. –
How fast things can change towards where you want to go, if you start to fully focus on your goals and vision your dreams instead of your fears. I will keep going, following my passions and intuition.